i dnt really have much to write about, im just bored here at home atm. I live wiv ma mate james and his sister but james is always out with his girlfriend and hannahs always out wiv her fella. And there aint alot to do at my house wen ur stuck on ur own. I think thats y i go to the cinema so much. Ive gotta do somethin to stop maself mopin around the house otherwise id go stir crazy, its feckin depressing! im actually becoming like my superviser. The guy always stays hours after he's ment to hav finished work cos he lives on his own and dosnt really have nethin to go home to except his cat, bless him lol. I used to think fuck that im goin home as soon as my shift finishes no matter wot! but now ive started thinkin, i hope theyve got some overtime i can stay for, ill be bored shitless at home. Jesus if i carry on thinkin like that i want someone to slap me, i dont care if its a complete stranger who just happens to read this blog lol. So yea, i think thats y i go to the cinema so much, its the only place i can truely relax. i can't at home cos ive got fuck all human interaction and its well dull nd lonely, and i cant at work cos, well...its just work aint it, i cant evenfully enjoy seein my mate there becos im always lookin over ma shoulder to check we dont get caught skiving and bollocked for talkin to her. The only trouble wiv goin cinema for me is that i always go on ma todd lol, which i know is a really loser thing to do but most of my mates have girlfriends nd boyfriends nd i HATE goin out wiv couples, u cant help but feel like the very arkward third wheel lol, and a few of ma mates like james who i cud go wiv on our own hav really annoyin habits wen there in the cinema, like txtin his girlfriend durin the film so the phone shines in ma face nd its all i can concerntrate on!!!! lol wot can i say i hate my cinema experience to be spoilt lol. And i dont hav a girlfriend to take wiv me so im pretty much stuck on my own. I dont mind it so much, its not as if u can talk to neone wen the films started neway, i just feel like a bit of a loser wen ur the only pleb in there on ya bill lol. Oh well, im startin bak at the gym 2moz, and im really gonna hit it hard. Beats sittin at home and bordem eatin al nite or day lol. Jesus this is a realy random and pointless blog tonite lol. i started writin it about 3 hours ago cos i was feelin really down and sorry for maself, but then i started msn'in ma mate nd lost came on not long after so i aint as mopey now lol, just really tired. Ive bin gettin like this alot recently, i hate it. i think ill be alrite wen ive started bak at the gym nd got my hols sorted and everythin so ive got somethin to look forward to. I better get ma head down if i do wanna hit the gym 2moz, its gonna be hard enough considerin i aint bin since october!!! ill let ya know if my mood perks up . lol just kiddin it will i just get a feel a bit pants every now and agen wen im tired cos i aint got maself a girl yet, spesh wen ive spent most of the day (well since 2)on my own, and even more spesh wen its around valentines day lol, but boo who right there aint no point pisin and moanin about it, but yea i think thats wots wrong wiv me tonite :S ....... and i caught a look at my naked torso in the mirror b4 and...well lets just say it aint very desirable and im itchin to sort it out in the gym agen lol, so yea thats ma plan, get my arse in the gym and get maself lookin b-e-a-utiful lol, and yep i no how gay that sounds lol, but it wud sound silly sayin 'buff' or 'ripped', cos i aint got ne muscle on me yet!!!!!btw im not usually so miserable, this things like a therapist once i start i just wanna spill ma guts!!!lol