hey, i no its been a few days since i last wrote, but alot of important stuff has happened to me in the past few days, stuff that i cnt write about on here but stuff that has givin me a propa buzz nd made me fel well gud bout maself.
for the past few years now ive been gettin more and more worried that i havnt slept wiv neone yet and ive been brickin it cos everyone i no is past the arkward fumbling stage now and i havnt even got there yet, so ive been thinkin oh fuck im not gona no wot the fuck to do wen the time comes and im gona be shit at it lol.
but recently ive been thinkin who am i kiddin, ive got this 21 years worth of tension built up, wen the time does come i aint gona be worryin whether or not im shit at it, im just gona want to propa go to work on whoever im with lol. and i no y ive left it for so long, becos theres only one special person i wanna loose it to and until i meet someone who comes close to her which ive nowhere near done yet, im just gona keep hold of it lol. im not arsed about poppin my cherry nemore cos i no if i went out nd just jumped in bed wiv the first girl to make a move on me then i well wuldnt put my heart into it nd itll just be a shit few bumps and a squirt and me leavin with ma tail between ma legs hahaha. but neway, yea, this top girl has givin me a shit load of confidence cos we can talk about pretty much nethin to each other now and shes got me thinkin about wot id be like with her (you know...in the sack lol) if she was single and i cud hav her. and i thought theres no way id be some shit one minute wonder with her, id wanna show her how much she ment to me and just wanna completely maul her lol.....in a gud way lol!
so ive bought a dvd to learn some new tricks and that, and i am a guy so ive seen my share of porn and im pretty sure that will come in useful lol! i no practise makes perfect but wen i think about wot id do if i eva had a chance with this girl, i no that the way i feel so strongly for her coupled with the fact ive never had ne action, i no i wuldnt hav needed ne practise to do wot id wanna do lol.
so yea lol, if this girl ever reads this, i no i cant hav u despite how i feel for ya mate, but uve made me feel ten times better about maself and ALOT more confidence lol, so thankyou!

neway, this wasnt just gona be a sex blog lol, and its gona be a while till i find someone i wana b wiv as much as this girl so dnt expect nemore netime soon lol! but i no wot i wanna do now. i wanna get myself bak in shape. im not fat or nethin, im really slim, but i well wanna get some muscle on me lol. i used to be able to run, like, forever but ive eatin drank and smoked that much shit over the past year or so that im nowhere near as fit as i used to be. i work out doin press ups and crunches at nite but they really dont do the same as a full gym workout, and if im not careful im gonna grow a big pair of pecks but wiv no bicepts or leg muscles, ill look weird hahaha. so im gonna finish of the week exercisin wiv ma press ups nd stuff b4 i go to bed like i hav been doin and then get stuck in at the gym next week. cannot wait to get a bit of a body on me lololol.
ive also decided that the marines isnt for me. like my mate ash sed, if im gona do somethin like that then i hav to b 100% about it, and im not really. to be honest i think if i went in id get ma head blown off whilst im sat on the crapper knowin my luck lol!
so im gona have a look for some jobs, one that i can start a career in and that dosnt take me away from manchester, cos fuckin love it here lol. so yea thats the plan, but dnt expect ne blogs about that netime soon either cos i can c that taken a while aswell, but ill keep y'all updated, cos i no ur secretly really interested hahaha x x x

i have got a busy day ahead of me tomoz but the main thing i wanna do is find out wot the royal marines policy is on tatoos (just on the off chance i actually do join them one day lol). i wanna find out becos for years now ive wanted to get a tatoo. my mate ash has just had another two done and they look well gud and it made me realise how much i really want some done. i already know exactly wot i want for my first one and where i want it done (ill put a pic wiv this post so u can see). one of my favourite bands is slipknot. im not a hardcore mosher or nethin, i just think they are all mint at wot they do, spesh the drummer joey jordison. i was thinkin of just gettin a tatoo of him on my bak but not only wud that hav cost a bomb nd need a mint tatooist to make it really look like him, i think it wud hav come across as a little bit gay and there are enough FALSE rumours flyin round that im gay lol (thank you ash, yes i am blaming you lol)!!! so instead ive gon for the slipknot tribal S that im gonna get tatooed on my calf. i think itll look MIIIIINT! lol

but neway before i get that booked and sorted i gotta save up abit becos im pretty feckin skint at the mo. and i need to get my ever expanding gut in the gym lol. ive bin doin nothin but sittin on my arse nd eatin mcdonalds (MMMmmmmmmmmmm.....), so now im loosin woteva little muscle i built on my arms nd legs and replacin ne i had on my body with chubb lol. and i dnt wanna waltze into the tatoo parlour and whip out a skinny hairy twig leg and say tattoo that bitch lol. so yea, time to get some muscle on me lol.

not only that but i mite be able to go malia wiv my mates this year!!!!! im gettin excited cos i sold them out to go turkey wiv my sister, then she sold me out to go zante wiv her mates!!!!!!! i culdnt believe it lol. so yea i was holidayless for a while but my mates droppd out now so there mite be a place for me, wwwoooooo! but i defo nd to get ma body all sexy for that lol......jesus i do sound a bit gay, better pack that in lol.

neway ill fill u in on the developments of ma tatt and the hols, and how the gym sesh's are goin lol! x

p.s. the trainin starts after this saturday, i promised ashley a mcdonalds lunch lol x