hey hey hey, i no ive not written in aaagggeeesss, but so much has happened since i last wrote. but unfortunatly i cant really write about it here. it involved someone who means more to me than nethin else in the world and somethin that happened between us which i still think about everynite nd which always makes me feel so undescribably gud! i mean she always makes me feel sssooo gud about myself, but she did somethin for me, somethin that cud hav got her in a lot of trouble, somethin that i dont wanna experience wiv neone but her. im not gonna say nemore about it but its makin me smile just writin about it lol.

i dnt think i cud love her nemore than i do right now, not just becos of wot happened between us,but becos of how lucky i feel everyday becos of her, it feels really really gud!

aaaaannnnnyyyway b4 i turn into the little stalker like i do almost every blog, ive finally got ma first tattoo. Wooooo! it aint finished yet, ive got one little bit to get coloured in then im sorted, it looks well sic! ill stick a pic of it at the end of this blog. its itchin like a muthafucker now tho lol. Ash ses that this will last about 3 weeks , which is crap cos in 3 weeks i get the top half filled in, so just as i get over one load of itchin im gonna hav another 3 weeks of it!!!!!!!! lol oh well its all worth it, it luks well gud, ive already started plannin my next one, its gona be a sleeve down my left arm and goin across my chest, mmmiiinnnttt!!!

i started back at he gym the other week. its the first time since october that ive bin and i was as out of shape as i thought i wud be lol. i think i sed all this last blog actually. but neway i went on friday and i was startin to look pretty built wen i came out nd still had the pump lol, i no it sounds gay but everyone checks themsleves out wen theyve bin in the gym. i had a bit of a setback this weekend, it was ma grans birthday and ive bin bingin on alot of food lol, and i mean ALOT!!! so im gettin a few squishy patches on my body lol, but im in the gym all this week so ill be fine, now ive got my tat done its like an incentive to stay fit lol, i dnt want it stretched across a massive gut lol.

thats really about it for now, still no news on the job front lol. im a bit skint at the mo. im savin up to get some new threads. i went wiv ash to town the other day so she cud get some new holiday gear, i enjoyed hangin out wiv her like that, just the 2 of us out of work, i wish i didnt have to rush back to hav my tat done, but i still enjoyed it. i did feel pretty jelous tho cos she gets to go away this summer and i got sold out by ma sister, nd i love goin shoppin for new holiday gear, she culdve helped me pick out some snazzy speedos lol. ive just realised how gay that all sounds, "i love shoppin for holiday gear..."!!! why do i always make maself sound so gay in my blogs lol. im gona start tryin to sneak at least one gay sentence in each blog lol!OJ!!!

anyway thats all i got to say tonite, im gona settle bak in bed and finish watchin revolver...its a mint film, bit of a head fuck tho lol.

so, yea, nite everyone, im sure ive got more stuff to say but the dvd is destracting me lol!!!! x x x