well i think it bout time to fill u inon everythin thats goin on in my lil head. ive bin propa rinsin the gym recently. im gettin fitter and fitter every week nd next week im gona start swimmin agen aswell. im lookin for a decent boxin gym at the mo so if neone has ne ideas, let me no lol, cos the ones round my end are dog shat!!! im gona start street runnin aswell after a few weeks. im really lookin foward to gettin fit lol. i loooooove goin to the gym, it makes me feel gud and its helpin me sleep better, its givin me more energy and my appetite is hhhhuuuuuuuugggggeeee lol!

im always eatin now, but ive startin eatin healthy agen so im feelin well better than i did wen i was livin off junk food. im stil gona treat maself to kfcs nd mcds at the weekend, theres no way i can live without them lolol!!!!! but im chowin down propa healthy other than that!

im sick and tired of my job now. i really fuckin hate it!!! the only time i dont mind bein in work now is wen ashley is there wiv me. shes one of my best mates and id hav quit a rrrreeeaaalllyyy long time ago if it wasnt for her. i even look forward to goin in just to spend time wiv her. she a propa laugh and a well top girl.

but wen shes not there im bored SHITLESS!!!! i no i need to move on now for sure. i no ive been chattin bout wot i wanna do alot, and ive narrowed it down to three things: the fire brigade, the royal marines or the regular army. im pretty scepticle bout the fire brigade becos i no its really hard to even get past the application stage and u really do hav to b smart to get in. but im gona start preppin by buyin some gcse evision books and brushin up on my maths nd shit, cos its been that long since i used my brain properly lol. and i defo need to brsuh up on my spellin, to stop ash rippin me if for nothin else hahahaha (congratulations, y the hell did i think it was spelt congraDulations!?!?!?!).

im also a bit worried worried bout the marines cos ive got 2 big tattoos and i dnt no wot their policies are bout tats. im gona look into that soon and see if im still eligable lol.

i never realy wanted to join the regular army but the idea is realy growin on me. i really wanna serve now, even if its just for 3 years. the amount of qualifications u can get whilst ur in is unbelievable, and i can get alot better jobs if ive served my country hahahaha!!!

so im really gona start lookin into these things and researchin wot i wanna do. in the mean time im gona get maself really fit, cos lets face it, u gotta be fit in al those careers lol, i dont no y i do it to myself hahaha!?

theres nothin new on the love front. im still in love and ive had a few moments where i can feel myself goin on a propa downer wen i think about how i cant have this girl, but im not gona let myself get that miserable agen. i have no reason to be, shes my best friend and i no she loves me that way, so wot do i hav to be miserble about lol!?!?!
that sed i really do wish i had someone of my own. its only at nite i feel pretty lonely, but i think to myself, the girl of my dreams, the girl im in love wiv liked me bak, and even tho we cnt be together and she loves someone else, the way she felt bout me means so much to me and makes me realise ive got nothin to be sad bout. im sure theres another girl out there for me, even if i dnt love her as much as i do this girl, at least i wont be one ma own lol.

as for money, do not even get me started lol!!!! i am flat broke lol. but im gona get out of this slump. ive bin worse b4 and i always land on my feet. i admit this time i may need a loan to get out my overdraft, but id rather be payin of a bit at a time each month than stay stuck over a grand in my overdraft. and i hav defo learned from this. no more livin out of my means for me lolol! and ive not bin able to go to the cinema! and cinema is like my heroine, not bein able to go wenever i want to has been killin me hahahah!!! but as of the end of this month all that will change lol!!!!

neway thats all ive got time for today, ive got to go and get ready for work now, i really ned the overtime, and its a gud day today cos ash is in, so i dont really mind lol! laters!!!! x x x